i submitted my application today! im taking a pretty big risk here. but at least if i dun make the cut, i can say i've tried. to come to think of it now, im not sure if i should be happy or sad cause my results cant really get me anywhere. happiness is contentment so i should be happy but the thing is, i may be contented now, but im not secure. im taking a big risk in my jae application & i wont feel any more secure till 1st March. & jae posting results will be out on 6th March[Master Bae's bday!] oh why're they all in March?
i called him a fucker today. i was so anxious my jae verification wouldnt print. even tho all he said was a simple 'forget it', i felt really bad. i still got punished for that, by the guilt i felt. im gonna try to stop using the f-word. i really must.it takes time to stop completely, but i must try hard.
